Tuesday, March 22, 2011

What More Do I Have To Give

I've run out of words to say. I've run out of actions to express. I've run out of tears to cry. I've run out of prayers to pray. I've run out of excuses to make. I've run out of road to drive. I've run out of music to listen to. I've run out of magazines to flip through. What am I suppose to do when I've ran out of everything that I have but love for you? I can go across the world and back and give away all of my earthly possessions, but nothing will help me move on from you, but running out of love. It is the one thing that I cannot control. It's the one thing that won't allow me to let you go every time you walk out the door and back into your life. This time around I cannot blame anyone. Not even you. I knew what could happen and would happen and I continued on our journey anyway. It's amazing how the human heart can learn to deal with pain or sadness. I've taught myself how to cope with the sadness that I have when it comes to you. I've taught myself how to function with the pain. But I must admit...I love you. Period. Nothing will heal my heart, but you. No one can wipe my tears away like you. No one laughs at my jokes, but you. My heartbeat is in rhythm with yours. Just the thought of you picks me up when I'm down. I will cross an ocean and move a mountain just to be in the same room as you. I will compromise all of my hopes and dreams so that you can pursue yours. I will live as humble as a homeless man and eat grass and drink water and rid myself of all of my earthly possessions to grant you security. I know I can live in this world and strip myself of every thing I have, but that still probably won't be enough to be with you. My determination is fading fast. Again, I must ask myself, how long will we play this game? I have run out of things to sacrifice. I have run out of thoughts to think. I have run out of hope to believe in. But the funny thing about life is that I cannot let you go until I have ran out of love for you...which can take a life time.

3 comments:

Kenny said...

The honesty is refreshing. Despite the way it may look, you're on your way to healing.

Anonymous said...

thank u...I was inspired to write this. not about me tho.

TC said...

Good job this is amazing!!! I get a chill everytime i read it...well done!